Does My Heart Good

I love Halloween. Its a blatant celebration of all things spooky, scary, and otherwise not appropriate for most audiences. I can be as Goth as I want and no one even frakkin' blinks an eye. "Oh great costume" ...if they only knew what darkness lurkes beneath the surface...mwahhaaa! I have some of the coolest decorations this year for the annual phreaquez party. This is so much cooler than a reunion party...its a gathering of like minded psycopaths who are really good at dodging the psych ward...oh oops except that guy who just got a job as an outpatient councler at Wabash...doh...oh well, we will just get him so liquored up that he won't be able to tattle on us.
Oh yeah and then there's me who is finally getting the money to pay off the bastards at Purdue so I can go back. Gonna check out the Psych dept to see if I can finagle an undergrad degree. Been checking out career options and a psych degree is going to get me closer to my goals than the wildlife degree. I can work towards Animal Behavior in grad school at IU...gasp...would love to write my graduate thesis on The effects of domestication of exotic felines on the preservation of the endangered cats in the wild. Are we really conserving the endangered tiger species if we completely alter it's social dynamic by domesticating it or are we just preserving it's genetic material?
Actual conversation:
"So why do you want to go into psychology?"
(my answer) "Cause I like to watch crazy people do fucked up things and I think it would be great if someone paid me big bucks for it."
(response) Blink Blink..."You'll fit in great around here!"
Been drooling over wild life photography lately. Gonna have to break down and learn how to use the new fangled technology. My digital camera is pissing me off...can't just click and shoot...gotta get all complicated and shit before the image is actually shot so the subject is half way out the door before I get my picture. This is good if you are photographing narcaleptics, but not if you want to photograph animals. I'm getting better shots with the el cheepo disposable camera...so sad. I want to go on photographer's safari or work for "Big Cats" and spend weeks in the wild capturing cats on film...I can dream can't I?





