Why's the Rum gone?

So RUM (Royal University of the Midrealm) got cancelled...something about Northern Illinois getting 9 inches of snow over 2 inches of ice and power outages. We got a little bit of rain. So I managed to entertain myself with the first and second seasons of Babylon 5. Wow did the writing for first season really suck or what...I wrote better dialog in grade school. At least it got better in second season.

I think the Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) is kicking in. I've been so run down lately. Need more light...so sad considering I could have passed for a vamp in my 20's.

Dec 8th,
Took the plunge and went to a dentist yesterday. I made it through the intensive cleaning scraping, x-raying, and poking. I didn't break down till the dentist came in the room to talk to me. Give me stuff to process scientifically and I can keep my shit. Ask me to explain why I'm terrified and the water works start. I hate to cry in front of strangers. He was great though...who would have thought they made caring and sympathetic dentists...

Xmas Court is this weekend. If I can put on a happy face long enough to get through it all...

Been thinking about going to PA for Xmas break. I haven't physically seen my family for over 10 years. I think it would be good for me, I just don't know if I have the emotional stamina to rehash an extremely edited version of my life for people I don't know anymore. I could tell my aunt practically everything, but the rest would probably give me that deer in the headlights look and slowly back away. Thanks mom for the bipolar social skills...